I didn’t think I’d ever come back to this house. We renovated it to make it suitable to rent as a share house, and it was – before we realised the location was too good to give up and so we went back to it; green stairs and all.
Sometimes the things that need to change stare us in the face daily and we can either become numb or narked.
Some days I am numb to my green stairs, as the hustle and bustle of life swiftly brings me up and down the stairs carrying at least one child and an armful of other items needed with me for the day. Other days I am just narked by the fact the green stairs have not changed and I want to do something about them…I just don’t know where to start!
The outside of our house is no longer a bright, light blue with some bits of peeling paint; it is now a light grey with white trimmings and a dark grey trim. It looks great – it’s a huge improvement! It’s sleek, modern and makes it look so much better! I walk in the newly painted front door and look to the dark green stairs with white paint splashes (quite artistic really!) and see a big contrast. The outside is now looking really good with all the attention put there and the inside is suffering!
This stark contrast between the outside and the inside of my house got me thinking to the outside of my life and the inside of my life. Is there a stark difference?
Am I numb or narked to the contrast of my internal and external life?
Everything within me wants to be my best, wants to be better not only than yesterday’s mistakes, but yesterday’s best. I want to succeed at life! I choose to live my life for Jesus and I want to give him my best!
Giving Jesus my best does not mean giving him my most polished performance at life. It means giving him every part so that he can help me change and grow into the person he wants me to be.
Sometimes in my pursuit of excellence, I can get caught up in not only in what I think success looks like but I can even put too much pressure on myself to get the internal polished too.
I’m a sinner and although Jesus is slowly changing me from the inside out, I am far from perfect and it actually annoys me! I’m narked by my imperfection! I want to just give my internal world a paint job and be done with it! Polished and then ta-da!
Either I can admit I’m imperfect and then become numb to the fact and then just use it as an excuse to stay as I am, or I can be narked by it and be willing to let Jesus change the person I am on the inside and in turn, it does eventually impact the outside of my life too!
Maybe you can follow what I’m saying, or maybe you’re like me and my green stairs – you don’t know where to start! So if you don’t know where to start with your internal world, just pray a simple prayer to Jesus that just allows him to have access to your life, to your heart and pick up the Bible and have a read. Here’s a verse in Romans to point us in the right direction.
Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.