We got to bed just past midnight last night and as my head hit the pillow I hear my 6 month old daughter start crying…so I start weighing up my options, do I put her dummy in and try and settle her without feeding, or do I feed her now while I’m still awake anyway and then hope she lasts longer before another feed. I fed her…but the lasting longer part didn’t work, she was awake 2 hours later looking for more milk and then a little after that had dirtied her nappy and she was awake bright eyes and smiling to start the day at 5am. Meanwhile – my Son had woken with pins and needles in his arm at some point during the night when I had just started to doze off again. I felt like I was awake all night.
I struggle out of bed to start my day and the battle with the 2 year old has already begun. He has helped himself to the fridge and had spilt the 2L bottle of milk all over the kitchen floor. He started to tantrum when he was told he is not allowed to help himself into the fridge.
In the difficult moments I like to remind myself that…
I’m living the dream! I’m married with two beautiful kids, own the house I’m living in (well have a mortgage). My husband is loving and supportive and is such an incredible person and fantastic father to my children. We have the same values and when we make big decisions – it’s always easy because they are based on Biblical truths and trust in God.
I have it so good! I am so blessed! Anything worthwhile in life takes time, effort, sacrifice.
My dreams don’t stop at being married with kids and owning my home, there is a lot more I want to achieve with my life…but for a long time, I dreamt of the day I would have this and I am living in it now.
It’s great to have a bigger dream, more vision for your life beyond now…but take a moment to count your blessings and value your today. Even if you are not where you thought you’d be – there is always something to be grateful for.
If you trust God for your future you will find a lot more satisfaction in today.